a flower a day keeps the sads at bay :)

I would love to hold a camera everywhere I go, and capture all the moments of my life. The exciting occasion, the lovely flower, the beaming child, the boring moment - all these are to be treasured. :) to be able to keep all these in my memory, under lock and key of images captured. How nice it would be. I do not want to forget anything, not even the most mundane, for I can see, how a few months down the road I will look back and try to remember what life was like once. Just like how I can't really remember what school life used to be like. Finding my way around in misty cloudy pictures of loneliness, not remembering the strangers' faces I used to see along the walkways or corridors - the odd Science student, surprised to see a Humanities student out of her Humanities shell.

I am not a very good example of a Christian. I get angry at people easily, I don't love all the people I know, I'm not very patient with those who get on my nerves, profanities spill out when I'm not careful. Please don't judge my God for who I am. It's precisely because I am a sinner, that I need a Sinless God to come and redeem me. Although I am not perfect, please give me time. Like what yHope always likes to say, we are all still 'work in progress'. Reading my blog will tell you that I am far from being the perfect person I was meant to be. I am still discovering what it means to be a perfect person, to be a perfect daughter to the perfect Father. But I do know that God = Love, and this is why I am still believing in Him. He gives the most wholesome, perfect, selfless, patient, forgiving, graceful love.

should not have

This is -the- sunflower which pleasantly surprised me after solving two hours worth of challenging math problems. The boy is so so thoughtful and sweet. :)







should not have read, should not have gone back to lj, should not have missed what I've left behind.


should treasure the friends I have, should find the place I truly belong to (for life), should get a hold on my emotions, should read more and sleep less.





I fought with him again because of the invitation. I decided not to bother anymore, so be it if he wants his way. This is my life - not his. Then I remembered how God says Do not murder, and that if you anger you are already commiting murder in you heart, then I felt bad about it.

Today's bible quote of the day on fb was "Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you." [Ephesians 4:32] - BAH God :(

go jiu go la you she me liao bu qi de. qu le ye shi lang fei shi jian. But I musn't go with this mentality, otherwise what he said would become right. Terrible.

And, no more need to fit in. I want to be myself.

yay kids :)

Ceri :) my k2-kid - she was the only one who turned up for lesson today, it was raining in the morning and i think the other two children couldn't wake up :( anyway, she's cuter in real life. She's extremely intelligent and I adore her very much.

Today I sat beside the rubbish bin outside the station eating Mr. Bean ice-cream. I like Mr. Bean ice-cream very much. If I ever need cheering-up, Mr. Bean ice-cream will always do the trick. :)

I am not very happy today, but I will try to be happy tomorrow. :)

It seems that everyone is taking stock of life these days. Sometimes we all rush into things without thinking, and its only when we stop to take note that we realise that we've forgotten to appreciate and enjoy the process of things. I think I committed the same mistake, looking for a job straight upon graduation - forgetting to take time for myself, to get back in touch with God and to tidy up my life before cleaning up and moving on. I'm worried that one month is not enough for me to trash out the clutter before I fall into the rat race and competition again.

At the same time, I want to acknowledge that the process is as important as the result. The juniors are going onstage on Tuesday. As much as I'm worried for them, I'm excited to see how they will grow and learn through this experience. It's often the people who are in it that don't see how precious the experience is. I remember how trying Graz was, but even more vividly in my memory is how we went for it together, enjoyed it together, won together and cried together. You see, at the end of the day, it's not the hurt you go through that you remember, but the sweetest memories that you retain. And that's what's beautiful. If anything, choir has taught me never to give up. As simple as that. To never give up. And to believe that as the Hwa Chong Choir, we are strong enough do just that - to strive and fight and to never give up.

音乐的美，在于它能最直接地展现人的情感和想法；透过音乐，学生与我更深一层地彼此了解，而在一小节、一小节地雕琢我们心中完美的旋律的过程中，一点一滴地建立了对彼此的信任与关怀。我能感受到他们对我的尊敬，我相信他们也感受得到我对他们的爱。

One year later, I realise what kw means when he said that it is love which binds Miss Lim's choirs together.

I was telling kw today that i want to take the 5 years that he'll be away to learn more about love. Love that cannot be experienced in everyday life, i want to experience. I want to volunteer at old folks' homes, kindergartens, orphanages, home for the disabled - anything that means love. I pray that God will lead me.

I really love children. Today when Ceri, Chloe and Afiq hugged me, my heart really melted. Expecially when Afiq jumped into my embrace, with his charming radiance and exuberance. Perhaps this is the innocence of youth I have begun to miss. This is what made me realise that there is so much more to life than just working and earning money, striving hard and working towards a goal - all these are important, but what would life be if you don't do the things you want to? I am determined to experience all forms of love for myself.

i miss You very much. i want to come back to You.