something i realised yesterday

ever wondered why when Jesus died for us on the cross the image was so gruesome? the nails in His hands, His feet, the blood, the crown of thorns..? its because He has to pay the wages for our sins. and the wages of sin is death. in His eyes, our sins are as hideous as how we see His wounds to be hideous. and you know, the thing is, when Jesus died for us, His wounds are not just hideous, they pain us. we pity Him, even non-believers. there's something tugging at our heartstrings, and it pains us even though we don't understand why. is it pity? is it sympathy? what about when Jesus looks at the sins we commit? they are to Him as hideous, but unlike what people may believe, He doesn't hate us for them. no, of course He doesn't. if we felt pity for Him even before (or after) we know Him, what do you think the Perfect Lover would feel towards our sins? i think He feels pain beyond what we can imagine. in fact, i would think that because He loves us more than we can ever love Him, He feels even more than what we as humans feel.