It seems that everyone is taking stock of life these days. Sometimes we all rush into things without thinking, and its only when we stop to take note that we realise that we've forgotten to appreciate and enjoy the process of things. I think I committed the same mistake, looking for a job straight upon graduation - forgetting to take time for myself, to get back in touch with God and to tidy up my life before cleaning up and moving on. I'm worried that one month is not enough for me to trash out the clutter before I fall into the rat race and competition again.

At the same time, I want to acknowledge that the process is as important as the result. The juniors are going onstage on Tuesday. As much as I'm worried for them, I'm excited to see how they will grow and learn through this experience. It's often the people who are in it that don't see how precious the experience is. I remember how trying Graz was, but even more vividly in my memory is how we went for it together, enjoyed it together, won together and cried together. You see, at the end of the day, it's not the hurt you go through that you remember, but the sweetest memories that you retain. And that's what's beautiful. If anything, choir has taught me never to give up. As simple as that. To never give up. And to believe that as the Hwa Chong Choir, we are strong enough do just that - to strive and fight and to never give up.

音乐的美，在于它能最直接地展现人的情感和想法；透过音乐，学生与我更深一层地彼此了解，而在一小节、一小节地雕琢我们心中完美的旋律的过程中，一点一滴地建立了对彼此的信任与关怀。我能感受到他们对我的尊敬，我相信他们也感受得到我对他们的爱。

One year later, I realise what kw means when he said that it is love which binds Miss Lim's choirs together.

I was telling kw today that i want to take the 5 years that he'll be away to learn more about love. Love that cannot be experienced in everyday life, i want to experience. I want to volunteer at old folks' homes, kindergartens, orphanages, home for the disabled - anything that means love. I pray that God will lead me.

I really love children. Today when Ceri, Chloe and Afiq hugged me, my heart really melted. Expecially when Afiq jumped into my embrace, with his charming radiance and exuberance. Perhaps this is the innocence of youth I have begun to miss. This is what made me realise that there is so much more to life than just working and earning money, striving hard and working towards a goal - all these are important, but what would life be if you don't do the things you want to? I am determined to experience all forms of love for myself.

i miss You very much. i want to come back to You.

taking stock

gah its been ages since i last posted i think i ought to get back to journaling my life but well i do have a red book for the Best Friend so yeah. if you are reading this you probably know also that i'm working in an unnamed tuition in the middle of Jurong East and therefore am obscenely busy because my working hours are insane so yes i am sorry that i haven't been able to get in touch with you :(
for self:
1) the reason why God put me here where i'm working now. i need to pray about being able to attend newyearseve service and church on friday nights.
2)the way you treat ppl = the way they treat you. more importantly the way God would treat these ppl
3) buy introduction to psychology/the idiot's guide to psychology/learning more about psychology
4) revise physics and unearth the textbook buried eons ago
5) LOSEWEIGHT
6) grow hair out
7) 23rd!!!
8) stop forgetting birthdays
9) be more loving

people to catch up with:
1) the butt
2) the ex-sheep
3) my cherie armour
4) her and her BF (again)
5) BEST FRIEND ( :(:(:( )
6) CHEN JIAN YI
7) CHOIR PPL IN GENERAL esp ALTOS
8) that girl

pictures to take:
1) of workplace and its surroundings
2) of the people i go out with
3) things i like but never have the chance to take photos of


maybe i ought to blog about the things i read one day